Monday, 26 April 2010

Survivor's guide: day 49

It is the final count down.  In two hours Laura's journey begins.  I can't even begin to describe how excited I am.  I'm frantically trying to get all the little house cleaning things down, put finishing touches on my projects for Laura, and school work.  Laura woke up at 3am, or at least she was trying to, to get to the airport with the 2 hour buffer they want for international travel.

I don't think I will be able to actually focus on my school work for the rest of the week.  Heck it may even be the rest of the term that I won't be able to properly focus on my school work.  I'm having troubles as it is.  I already have my route planned out to avoid traffic and I am toying with the idea of leaving class a little early as to prevent Laura from having to sit in the airport for an hour and a half.  My mind is racing as is my heart.  Goodness me.  It has been a very long time.

I got in touch with a friend of mine recently, she said the longest she had been apart from her husband was two weeks and that it was horrible.  I can imagine.  I figure it sucks just as much two weeks or two months.  Two weeks might even be harder cause the pain never dulls.  At least I had the time to shut out the ache, at least manage it.  I hope she never has to be away from her husband again.  I hope I never have to be away from Laura again.

So tomorrow I will reveal my big projects I did for Laura.  They were fun and some will carry over I am sure.  I need to get back to studying and clean up.  Nervous energy so lends itself better to physical work.

49 days down.  Survived it.

Sunday, 25 April 2010

Survivor's guide: day 48

The separation is drawing towards its end.  Thank goodness for that.  Monday is the last day I will be without my wife.  Need I really say more about anything for this post?

Well if I do too bad cause I need to get homework done and  I really need not get myself into a frenzy.

48 days down, 1 to go!

Saturday, 24 April 2010

Survivor's guide: day 47

I am so excited about being with my wife again I totally forgot to blog last night.

The final count down has come.  With each passing moment m mead spins faster and faster as if it going to spin right off.  My head is buzzing with excitement of finally getting to hold my wife.  I love her so much.  My heart is pounding and feels as if going to burst right out of my chest.  Just thinking of her gets me all wound up now.  I though that this would be easing up as time went on.  That it would be hardest at the beginning then I would adjust.  Completely different from what I expected.

I love my wife.  I am glad to have her in my life and I am so glad she will be back in my arms soon.

47 days down, 2 left.  It went by faster than I expected upon looking back.

Thursday, 22 April 2010

Survivor's guide: day 45

So I knew today Laura and I may not get to chat much cause she had a busy day in Aberdeen with an old school friend.  I also knew she was going to have an early train to catch so I wasn't really expecting to chat with her much or have much communication with her at all.  I was pleasantly surprised to have an e-mail from her.  It just made my day.

On top of that she was able to hope on and say goodnight before she went to bed.  It was the end to the perfect communicative day for me anyway.

So my projects for Laura are about to come to an end.  I need to come up with one more really good one to have one project per week.  I just have to find something good that also doesn't interfere with school work.  It is definitely a challenge.  It is going to be so nice having my wife back again.

45 days down, 4 more to go.

Wednesday, 21 April 2010

Survivor's guide: day 44

So close now so very close.

I am more excited to see my wife again than I am for christmas, birthday, disneyland, or when she first came over.  I can hardly wait.  Short I know but I have had a long busy day, most of which I was able to spend time chatting with my dear wife.  I don't think I am going to let her be as soon as she get back.

44 days down, 5 more to go!

Tuesday, 20 April 2010

Survivor's guide: day 43

I finally finished the last cupcake Laura sent.  only took me forever to eat 3.

The volcano in iceland seems to have settled down a bit.  At least enough to let flights to continue on their merry way.  Thank goodness for that.  It is now, so near the end of this horrible journey, that I feel like I may crack.  The strain on me seems a bit much.  I don't know why now, with less than a week to go.  Perhaps it is because of the excitement and it is not coming nearly fast enough.  I wish I had time to take off with Laura for the rest of the week and not worry about school.  Sadly I can't.  That is the one thing I really miss about undergrad.  If I needed to (or really wanted to in a case like the one Laura and I will be facing in about a week) I could take time off and keep running with the work without being buried or forced to take classes over again.  No room for that now.  I am forced to keep running, even if I'm about to crash and burn.  No time is planned in to let people get sick and recover.  Of all the places you would think that sort of thing would be taken into consideration they would have done that at a health professional school.

Regardless I am going to enjoy my time with my wife all the more.  She is going to be sick of me.  I may be getting a bit clingy.

So with all the tests done we know a lot of things that aren't the cause of Laura's phantom pain.  The good thing about the list is that we have eliminated some scary pain causers.  Like cancer.  Laura and I both agree it is better to suffer from some mystery pain than to suffer pain from a terminal disease.  Pain you can live through or with (most of the time) death is a bit harder to survive.  Of course being of the faith Laura and I both are death is merely a separation for a time from loved ones here, a separation that is not permanent.  Fortunately the separation Laura and I are currently dealing with is drawing to the end.  Thank goodness.

43 days down, 6 left

Monday, 19 April 2010

Survivor's guide: day 42

Final count down!  Not much longer now and the volcano seems to be playing nice.

I had a nice weekend with my family.  I'll get ti see them again later in the summer when we meet up at my grandparents.  It is where they are right now.

I cleaned up the house.  Didn't get to do it as part of my usual weekend ritual which is fine cause family was here.

Tomorrow Laura goes in for another set of blood tests.  Apparently the last one didn't check for infection so that is what they are doing tomorrow.  Odd that didn't happen but what ever.  They'll inform Laura whether or not she has an infection or not.  Another test down any way.

Laura will be home next week.  I am so excited.  I feel more anxious and emotional than I did at the beginning.  I figure that is because she is going to get home soon and I know it.  Hard to wait when it is so close and it is m other half coming home.  This is more exciting than Christmas!  I can hardly contain myself.

42 days down, 7 to go!