I dream of Rexburg!?

Oddly enough I find myself longing for the small little city known as Rexburg.  I think I may be looking for a little bit of security as right now I really am not feeling it.  While Laura and I didn't have tons of dispensable income we had enough money that if anything came up we could take care of it.  Right now I feel on the brink.  Not only was everything cheaper there in Rexburg I was near family (blood relatives and dear friends I consider family) now I feel a bit adrift.  I sometimes wonder if this is really what I want to be doing with my life.  Could someone please build an alternate reality machine where I am able to view possible outcomes of my life had certain variables been different?  I think it would be really handy and perhaps we all would be able to make better personal life choices.  I see some of my high school friends who went into the computer industry, like I had thought about doing, working and moving on with life in general.  I feel stuck.  I keep spending money I don't have and still need to come up with more money to pay for my education without knowing where to find it.

Laura and I need health insurance but I have no idea where the money is going to be coming from for that.  Everybody wants my money that I don't have, including myself.  Don't get me wrong I don't expect it to get much different after I start working as a chiropractor.  I know people are still going to be after my money but at least I will be making money to give away to people.  I get student loans equivalent to just under most starting yearly income jobs.  Needless to say it has me panicked.

What a gloomy post.  Happy Valentines Day Jonny Rain Cloud.  No cake, No ice cream.

Well I feel much better after venting that.  Hopefully all you readers (I'm not delusional, I'm pretty sure there is only a handful) aren't bummed by my depressed post.  I find it odd though that by mearly writing about it, where anyone could be reading, that I feel much  better having gotten it off my chest. I spoke to Laura about it yesterday but when I saw Rexburg on Google Earth it all came flooding back to me.  From the very first winter there I was so ready to be leaving the middle of no-where.  Four and a half years went by so quickly and now I wish I could be there once more, just a little longer.  Of course there must come a time when we must stop the wishing or risk wishing our life away.  Lesson learned: Enjoy the time you have today (why didn't I buy into that one earlier?).